Wednesday, November 30, 2011


I kind of feel like I have nothing new to report.  Lol.  I know there is stuff happening in my life but it feels like things are moving kind of slow.  Alright... lets see...

    Snuk's first day of school.
  • My youngest son started school on Monday, well not officially school but is doing his evaluation with the school district and so far so good.  He's been totally wiped out by the time he's picked up.  They say he's doing very well.  Hopefully I will know something shortly after this week regarding if he will be eligible to go to school come his 3rd birthday in January.
  • I've been dealing with my downstairs neighbors (now really hating living in an apartment) for the past 6 months complaining about us stomping or making too much noise.  First it started with the lady coming up and knocking on our door (mind you, any noise made is during the middle of the day).  Well in the past few weeks they have been banging on their ceiling (our floor) really hard.  I finally had enough because we were really doing nothing and called our office last week.  Then last night, the kids and I just barely walked in the door and my husband tells me they just banged on the ceiling/floor right before we walked in... and all he was doing was chopping up some turkey.  So I called again and the apartment manager came down to talk to them and us.  Basically, they are ultra sensitive... and he hoped that we could work it all out and if not, since we're good residents... he suggested maybe moving us to a bottom unit.  Fine either way... because they will be dealing with it no matter who is above them.
  • Finally I broke out crying yesterday after being ultra pissed off due to a work situation.  I just kind of felt really attacked.  I'm trying to figure out how to cope with people I work with and try not to be as sensitive or take things so personally.  VERY difficult.
  • As for eating... doing pretty good on calorie intake, although I admit... I gave into my snacking the last two nights and had some Snickerdoodle cookies (last of our cookie dough) and chips the night before.  The water intake has been pretty good too... and my sodium is lower.  I got on the scale today... and I'm back in the 209's... here's hoping for a good weigh-in on Sunday.
  • As for this coming weekend... I have a dinner thing for Women Only that I was invited to on Friday with a local church.  Looking forward to that.  Then on Saturday my friend invited the whole family to a Christmas Party that she helps out with every year.  And well no major plans for the birthday... I really don't feel up to it, I guess I feel like its no big thing since I'm only turning 31 years old... and each year I get let down, so its easier to just have no expectations.  Lol.
So thats about it........

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Weigh In for 11.27.11

Weigh-In:  210.4

I'm up 1.4 lbs this week.  Crazy thing is I had actually got down to 208.0 as of Tuesday and then it went downhill from that point during the week.  I was off all week long besides Wednesday... I grocery shopped on Sunday and bought snacks (for the kids, hahaha) and I ended up eating the freakin' stuff!  Chips and kettle popcorn.... ahhh!  I did fine all week... until Wednesday.  I didn't eat much of anything, I was starving... and went for a bag of popcorn.  Then Thanksgiving day... I didn't do too bad until I ate that chocolate pie... and I purposely went to my mom's house the next day to eat the last of the pie.  WTF?  I've never done anything like that for food.  Lol.

Lets just say the sodium monster caught up to me from the TWO, yes two grilled cheese sandwiches I consumed Wednesday night, then add in the chips and popcorn over the next couple of days.  I tried to drink lots of water... Haha... good news is that I was originally up to 211.8 so as of this morning it dropped more.  Crazy how our bodies work.

Good thing this coming week though..... back to work and back to getting on track with eating habits.  No more snacking in between meals and I'll be getting my protein in as needed to avoid the snacking.  Also I'm not too far from hitting Onderland, so my goal is definitely to get into the 100's by January 1st... so I really have to focus.  I have 4 more weeks until then.  

You know what else sucks..... On Tuesday when I stepped on the scale and seen 208.0; prior to receiving that number the scale was actually teetering between 198 and 199, and landed on 199.  I knew that wasn't right... and then re-stepped and got my 208 over and over.  I tell you the scale sucks for playing with our minds like this.

Anywho..... on to a better week!

Thursday, November 24, 2011

Happy Turkey Day!

I hope everyone has a wonderful day to day with family and friends.  I am definitely thankful for all the blessings this year.  Thankful for my family, my husband... even in our down moments.  Its been a growing experience and thats what we're suppose to do, keep growing.  Thankful for my children... watching them grow into little people each day.  They are hilarious and I love it!  It makes me a proud mama to see they are doing so well right now (lets hope it continues into teenage-hood, I have one on the brink of this).  Thankful to have a job... although its been pretty rough lately with the office politics, I ultimately love my job and what I do everyday and I actually get paid pretty well.  So that in itself is a blessing.

So I've had this past week off (besides yesterday) and the children have been home with me.  Its been pretty interesting.  The kids arguing and fighting over playing game systems or who's sitting next to mom on the couch.  Then there's the downstairs neighbors banging on their ceiling (my floor) because my youngest is running around.  I did talk to my office and complained about them... because we have 9-foot ceilings, they are purposely doing that.  My son does not purposely stomp... and its hard to make a 2-year old understand not to stomp, jump, or even fall out and throw a tantrum.  We do our best not to cause noise but sometimes its unavoidable with him.

Husband's Gumbo in the works...
Also... I cooked three times this week.  WHAT?! Yes, its true.  I don't cook normally.  I made homemade gourmet Feta & Bacon pizza with romaine salad on Sunday.  I then made cheeseburgers on Monday and Pork Tenderloin wrapped in Bacon with peas and rice pilaf on Tuesday.  All turned out really well.  I didn't cook last night, I took this allergy med because I had a major sinus headache and it mixed with my other meds and caused major sleepiness (and its non-drowsy).  I didn't eat at all yesterday and when I did eat last night... it was a damn grilled cheese w/ a turkey slice... horrible on the sodium.  Horrible.  I ate two sandwiches too! WTF? And they did go down... I haven't done that in forever.  Now onto getting my water in to clear out this sodium, definitely hard to do when I'm at home.

Outside of that... husband made Gumbo, a turkey, baked mac 'n cheese and a sweet potato pie for today.  We're going over to my mom's.  So yes, I didn't have to cook nada!  Just how I like it.  Haha...

Have a great day everyone.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Weigh In for 11.20.11

Weigh-In:  209.0

So I'm down 4lbs! OMG... and of course I double and triple checked.  Its true.  I finally lost the pounds I gained back about 3 weeks ago or even a month ago.  Plus a little more.  Awesome!  I'm feeling good.  So I'm going to post a picture of the weigh in today...

Kind of crazy to see that number... because that technically is my lowest of lows.  I knew I was having a good week and seeing it drop but just wasn't expecting this.  And I mentioned yesterday about hating exercise.  Okay, I probably don't hate it but I hate the part of "forcing myself" to do it.  Because once I'm doing it, I'm good.  Like last night... went rollerskating, I super enjoyed myself.  We were out there for about 2 1/2 hours and skated at least 75% of the time.  I really do enjoy it.  Its been so long since I've done it, but I noticed this time my legs didn't hurt as bad.  I was stronger for sure and could do things easier.  Fellow blogger Andrea commented yesterday regarding my "hate" for exercise... she's right, I need to do it, especially if I want to lose more and get to goal.  I know this deep down, but I've been in denial.  Lol.

So time to reflect on this past weeks food/water intake:

Sunday --- Under calories at 1072, over sodium by 150 (oops), no real water intake (another oops).
Monday --- Under calories at 1232, under sodium, only 24 ounces of water in.
Tuesday --- Under calories at 911, under sodium, 72 ounces of water in.
Wednesday --- Under calories at 989, under sodium, 120 ounces of water in (hoping that made up for Sunday/Monday, haha).
Thursday --- Under calories at 1187, over sodium by 75, got in 72 ounces of water.
Friday --- Under calories at 1448, under sodium, got in 72 ounces of water.
Saturday --- Under calories at 942, under sodium, 2 ounces of water.

Kind of interesting week.  I wonder if it was the calorie days under 1000 that helped.  I definitely was not snacking at all this week.  No extra foods, nada.  I haven't felt the urge to really eat any other stuff.  TOM also visited and left Friday, so that probably helped in things.

I seen yesterday's complete on MFP... and with the exercising, it said I would weigh 186 in 5 weeks.  Which makes me think... is that really possible with just some exercising? Possibly... especially if I stay under 1000 calories each day.  Hmmm... and then I am friends with another bander, she has lost 105 pounds... and was banded 8 months ago, she said she did it by staying under 1000 calories a day.  It really has got me thinking that maybe I should try this method, just see how it goes.  I know others say they stall... but I guess it doesn't hurt to see for a period of time.

Anywho...... main goal this week, EXERCISE!

BTW... I hit my 2 year bandiversary..... on November 17th, nothing major since I'm still not close to where I should be.  Lol.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Various Thoughts

Hmmm... I've kind of felt like I haven't had much to blog about lately.  Not sure why.  Lol.  Or I actually was focused on doing work this week.  I'm off for the next week (besides Wednesday for 6 hours) but just happy to have the break from work.  And I've been making sure everything is caught as much as possible on my side.  This is the first time in the 3 years I have been there, that I've been 5 days out on my work.  Typically its 30 days.  I guess now I understand why OT has been cut back (although I hate it and wish I could get more, HELLO! Holidays are here).

The good thing is... so far this week I have been doing pretty good on staying under calories and getting my water in.  No exercising.  Thats one thing I have been thinking about this week...... I hate it.  Lets be real, I hate it with a passion.  I don't want to do it.  Now I know once I actually do it, I get really into it and keep going.  But I just hate the fact of getting going.  Maybe thats it? I don't know, I'm hoping that changes soon.

The other thing is these meds I'm on, its been about a week and a half... and I can say I do feel much better.  It probably has helped in the focus department for work.  And well I really don't give a damn about the people at work or all the other bullshit that was happening.  I guess its what I really needed.  Add in that I think its actually helping with the snacking stuff.  Seriously, I haven't felt the urge to really eat, I just make sure I do eat when its time.  I haven't been snacking at all... and when I looked on the scale yesterday, it was down a pound.  I looked on the scale today..... down another pound.  Hmmff?  Almost back to 209.  We'll see what the official number rings in tomorrow on weigh in day.

So yesterday my baby had her first Thanksgiving play (she's in 2nd grade).  I wasn't able to attend because I was off earlier in the week for things pertaining to Snuk.  Luckily, Dad was there and he took photos for me.  He said it was very cute but also so funny.  She played Indian #3, #7 and #8 (they didn't have enough Indian's).  The kids knocked down their back drops they designed and when it came to her speaking part she was yelling it.  Here are some photos:


As I mentioned previously... I was busy dealing with things for Snuk.  He is currently getting Speech Therapy services through the ECI program.  He has been for over a year now.  We did his yearly evaluation on Monday and the results were VERY interesting.  His speech is right on target! Great news.  But he's fallen behind in his adaptive-self cares and some cognitive things.  His attention span is horrible (yes, you expect that with a 2 year old) but they have observed him through out the year and noticed its very difficult to redirect him compared to other 2 year olds.  I also had a meeting with the school district this week because we are working on transitioning him to school (basically once he hits 3 years old, the school district handles the special education).  He goes for his big evaluation with the school the week after Thanksgiving... and that means he is in the classroom for the entire week, 4 hours a day.  So we'll see how it all goes. :)

As for the rest of this weekend...... rollerskating tonight! And I've convinced my good friend to come with us.  Hahaha.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Happy Holidays... my bad a bit early?

Blahhhhhhhhhhhh!  I kind of feel like this today and lately a little bit.  I swear the holidays are so stressful.  I remember as a kid how much I looked forward to them.  And I've always said that the season of Fall is my favorite time of the year.  Why? Because football starts (GEAUX SAINTS!), then Halloween, Thanksgiving, My Burfday and then of course Christmas!

Then I grew up and had kids. 

Amazing how much that changes your perspective.  Lol.  Okay, I still love this time of year but I hate the stress of making sure I satisfy all of the kiddos desires.  I want to make sure they are happy.  Thats what we do as mama's.  I know deep down they are happy and grateful for all they receive because they are well aware that we are not a family that comes from wealth and that we have moments where we struggle.  Its just hard to remember that when this time of year comes.

Plus add in I have birthdays this time of year too...... first step-son's starts out in October, then Hubby's is in November, then mine is the beginning of December, then my oldest son's ends December, then youngest son's is the beginning of January and my daughter's is the end of January. 

All of that kills the funds.  I admit, usually we would combine birthdays... but now my oldest son is in middle school and wants to do his own thing.  Then my daughter wants her own thing.... so its like ahhhhhh!

I know we'll survive.  So the joy of the holidays begins!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Good Times in Waco!

Yeppers! I did enjoy my time with fellow friends who relate to me.  I never realized how nice it is to be around others who really do understand the way it feels to be stuck in a comfort zone due to your weight and who also help push you out of it when you need it.  Its also nice when eating around them because they understand why you leave so much food on the plate, etc.

I met up with fellow bloggers and WLS ladies... Andrea, Angela, Brenda, Dawnya, Debi, Ronnie, and Sarah.  I drove from Austin to Waco... I was fine about meeting everyone until I walked into the restaurant and realized, either A. I was the first one there, or B. the group of women in the back was all the ladies and I had the worst memory ever and did not recognize any of them.  LOL.  I even almost went up to them.  Thank God, I saw Sarah walk up... and OMG, she is so little and she looks fabulous!  She is definitely an inspiration to me.  So Sarah and I chatted it up and apparently, I was the first one there.  We waited for everyone to show up and then ordered lunch and ate.  And you should have seen the amount of food... Sarah ordered a salad, when I seen it being brought to her... I was like woooowwww.  They gave her half a loaf of bread.  LOL.  Even without the band, who eats that?

We then hit up the shops above the restaurant called Spice Village.  It was definitely a cool place.  I've never been to something like this.  The shops were all joined together.  I really didn't shop too much in there since I was on a budget aka broke! Lol.  But Sarah and I discovered this jewelry spot... and I was able to find some cute earrings for 50 cents a piece.  Can't wait to wear them.  Afterward we all went to a different shopping strip and hit up Marshall's, Pier 1 and Ross.  I had just gone to Ross the night before... but I did manage to find me some red flats (been wanting some and couldn't find any).

It was really cool to get to know everyone, I probably was a bit quiet.  I'm not sure... lol.  I tried to chime in, etc.  I definitely enjoyed talking and hanging out with everyone.  Dawnya is a trip!  She had me dying laughing the whole time.  Debi is very funny too, she has this funny type of sense of humor.  I talked some with Andrea... and she said my red shoes were cute!  Hopefully we can talk more next time.  I sat next to Brenda during lunch so we got to know each other and talked about our kiddos.  Angela was very sweet and definitely knows fashion... I will have to get some tips from her when I lose more weight and go shopping for clothes.  I like her style.  Ronnie was too funny... especially when she tried on some jeans.

Overall, I had a great time with the ladies... and can't wait to get know them even more when we meet up again.

Here's a couple of photos taken from my camera...

Weigh In for 11.13.11

Weigh-In:  213.0

So I'm back down by 1.2 lbs this week.  I like to see a loss... hoping I can get back to the 209 I seen a month ago.  Its like I hit the lowest of my lows and then stop.  I hate that.  I also know I am my own worst enemy... and I do this thing where I'm like yes, I did it... and sabotage I suppose.

Time to reflect back on my weekly food:

Monday --- Under calories, was over in sodium by like 400 (Yikes!).  Got in 72 ounces of water for the day.
Tuesday --- Over calories by 61, over sodium by 61.  Got in  48 ounces of water.  Bad day for some reason... it was probably work related.  Lol.
Wednesday --- Under calories, under sodium.  Only 48 ounces of water for the day.  
Thursday --- Under calories (got in 953), under sodium.  Got in 72 ounces of water for the day.
Friday --- Under calories (another day of 948), under sodium.  Got in 72 ounces of water for the day.
Saturday --- Under calories, under sodium.  Not too good on water intake.

I definitely see a difference this past week compared to the prior week.....  Still no exercising yet.  I don't know why I don't want to exercise.  I hate that I feel so lazy. 

I did finally get the food scale, so I'm sure that assisted this past week.  Actually weighing out my food and seeing that some things I was right on with guestimating but others, not so much.  Definitely an eye-opener on the overeating part.

Oh and I also decided to post some new pics under my Weight Photos... I bought some tights (that I wore yesterday) and figured these were good for posting pics of me since its more fitted and I can see my body better.  I'm also going to do measurements today... since its been awhile. 

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Going to Waco!

So excited this morning! I'm actually up early, willingly.  Haha.  Gotta get myself dressed since I showered last night.  I'm going to Waco to meet up with fellow BOOBs (or lapbanders) who are in the Texas area.  We're gonna have lunch and who knows what else.  Definitely bringing my camera.  This is gonna be awesome.  :)

I'm so excited to meet other people who are on this journey and have had success with it... and lets be honest, I need some words in person to help me get this motivation in high gear.  I can't wait to meet everyone!

Also, I finally get to meet my friend Sarah after all these years, we originally met off of MySpace back in 2007.  Even while I lived in the same city and never had a chance to meet in person.  So I'm excited to meet her and see how fabulous she looks... because she also had WLS and has lost 120 lbs since.  She is definitely an inspiration that it can be done.  I know she's gonna be all little... lol. 

So off I go... to get dressed.

Have a great day everyone!

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Good/Bad Things

I figured I'd do an update with the good and the bad things lately...... why not, eh?

  • Good thing - Got my doctor to put in the prescription for Lexapro.  Bad thing - Went to pick it up at the pharmacy and they said it would be $106.00 (for a 30 day supply) due to my lovely insurance.  I told the pharmacist "ohhh no, you can put that back on your shelf.  Like take it out of the bag with my name and put it back for someone else because I'm not getting it today OR later."
  • Good thing - Went to therapy... and basically cried it out all about my freakin' job.  I admit, I feel a bit paranoid by certain people... like their out to get me fired.  Glad I got all the crying and pent up emotions out.  Bad thing - Therapist said I really need to have some meds right now :(
  • Good thing - Talked to my doctor about an alternative med (cheaper) or samples.  No samples since that drug will finally go generic next year and the drug reps are no longer bringing them but I can get this other one called Celexa and its only $3.95.  Bad thing - I'm worried it won't work as fast or well as the brand...... I guess I have to wait and see.
  • Good thing - Found out the new prescription has a side effect of causing weight loss.  Bad thing - Probably won't be an actual side effect for me.  Lol.
  • Good thing - A guy a Walmart yesterday tried to "holla" at me (aka pick me up)... I was walking in and him out, he was almost yelling after me.  Bad thing - He was this old looking  dude... at least 45+ and looked it.  Lol.  I kept walking... a bit faster too and said eww in my head.
  • Good thing - I've actually been doing pretty well on foods this week during the day! And my water intake.  Bad thing - Night time delights (and I mean desserts).  Keep in mind I managed to buy like 4 things of cookie dough... to help the kids in school fundraisers.  As well as Halloween candy (thank God that is gone).
  • Good thing - Got a birthday gift.... a throw with kitties on it (I love cats!).  Bad thing - My birthday isn't until December 5th.  And I'm pretty sure the rest of my department will forget it again, as they have for the past 3 years (by the way, that accounts for why they think I'm still not 30 yet... turning 31 this year).
  • Good thing - Even though I almost exhausted all my PTO from being sick the last month or so... I found out I can borrow from the last PTO I will accrue this year and still take off the week of Thanksgiving!  I need time away from the job, like for real!  Bad thing - Will be at home the entire week with 3 kids alone, ahhhhh! (I do love my kiddos, but not too sure about being with them for a week straight... not sure if thats a real vacation.)
Yeah... overall, not too bad.

Hopeful Band Master!

I had to post this... after reading her blog and seeing this... it reminds me of what I need to be doing.  You see, its easy for me to forget or get comfy with myself and fall back into old/bad FatChica habits.  I know deep down I want to lose this but I need these reminders..... So I'm happy to see this out there and READ it again.  I hope that by reading it over and over again.... it will finally sink into my thick ass skull.  Lol.

Top 10 Reminders for Unlocking the Keys to Band Success (thanks to LapBand Gal!)
  1. The band is not primarily about restriction
  2. The band is first about reduced appetite (hunger) and eating less.  
  3. Always stop eating when you no longer feel physically hungry. This may be long before you actually feel full.  
  4. Measure foods, eat only the amount you measure, and then walk away.
  5. Do not rely on your stomach "feeling full" as your signal to stop eating. This can easily lead to chronic overeating because the stomach "tells" the brain it's full about 20 minutes after it actually is.
  6. Never eat until you are "stuffed."
  7. Never eat more simply because you can.
  8. The key to successful weight loss is not how much you can eat, but how little you can eat to suppress appetite.
  9. Pay close attention to your bodies signals that you are done eating. For some people this can be hiccups, a runny nose, watery eyes, a sigh, or a slight pain in the left shoulder. What does you body tell you?
  10. The band is a tool, you are the user, the controller, of the tool. Like any tool, it is only as effective as the person using it. You can use is effectively (like hitting the hammer on the head of the nail) or ineffectively (hit the hammer all around the nail). You control the tool, not the other way around By being careful and attentive you too will become a Band master.

I agree with all of these rules.... I'm still learning my true body signals but I sometimes end up with the hiccups and sometimes do the "big sigh".    I want to be a Band Master! 

Monday, November 7, 2011

Busy Weekend >> Football & Rollerskating!

So here's some fun stuff..... after all of the depressing posts.  But hey, this is my place to vent and even talk about the down in the dumps stuff.  Here I figured I wouldn't be doing much this weekend.  WRONG!  I knew we had my oldest son's Flag Football tournaments, its end of season.  Then add in that I promised the kids (mine and my neice/nephew) that I would take them rollerskating too.  All of these things would occur on Saturday, that was the plan originally.

Friday --- After work, I ended up going grocery shopping with hubby for food for this coming week.  So I did accomplish that part on getting things back on track for the weight thing.  I also had the mentality that I had until Monday to actually do it (bad thinking, I know).  I also forgot to get my food scale (Hubby is getting that for me today).  We ended up going Christmas shopping and getting the expensive stuff for the kids (did layaway at Walmart).  Still have some things to get in the meantime but the major things are out of the way.  Got home about 9:45ish... so late night with not great dinner choices.

Saturday --- Got to sleep in.  That was really nice.  And not feel guilty (since usually I feel I have to go to work on Saturdays).  We went to my oldest son's Flag Football tournament around 1:30ish... my nephew also plays on the same team (the Bucs).  There are 3 games played... and the 3rd game is the winner of the Super Bowl.  Lol.  Well they won their first game against the Cardinals.  My son was quarterback and threw very well for his team... my nephew caught 3 and made touchdowns each time.  They boys then had a one-hour break.  So we hit up McDonald's.  We went to this one that was designed all moddern.  I sat on a stool to my table... to eat.  It was strange for a McDonald's.  And there was a fire place with two metal rocking chairs next to it.  Lol.

We eventually made it back to play the 2nd game against the Bronco's.  However, they couldn't pull it off to win against the Bronco's... so no Superbowl.  :(  But they were okay with it.  Haha.  In the meantime, Brayden had fun running around all the fields and my niece and his Papa Matt spun him around in circles.  It was a really nice day on Saturday.  I think overall, the family had a great time.

Now the original plan was to go rollerskating Saturday night, but that was cancelled when my husband realized that LSU was playing against #2 team Alabama.  We kept going back and forth... but eventually he won.  I know the kids were disappointed but we promised to go the next day.  So hubby and I headed to Buffalo Wild Wings to meet up with fellow LSU fans... it was a sea of purple.  We had a great time... definitely a close game.  I also ate the largest amount of calories at one setting ever since re-starting my weight loss journey.  I am so embarassed and was shocked that one plate could be that many calories.  I went WAYYY over the top...... with the band (and I'm not proud of myself either).

Sunday --- No sleep in time.  Brayden made sure of that.  I woke up to him handing me a baguette of french bread and a plate in my back... telling me "I can't get this open".  Umm... yeah, good cause thats for dinner this coming week.  The older kids ended up staying the night with my parents and went to church that morning.  So we were up about 8am.  Hung out for a bit and the kids all were dropped off with us.   And we were off to rollerskating at Playland Skate Center.  I even brought out my skates from when I was 14 years old. 

The kids had a great time!  My nephew was a little upset because he wanted rollerblades, I said nope use the quads!  David didn't skate... but I did!  We were there for about 2 1/2 hours... and I skated for a majority of the time.  Talk about a workout.  I knew my legs would burn and OMG... did they, its all in your ankles, calves, shins... and then eventually it went up to my hips and lower back.  But after being out there for awhile (I did take a few breaks, but not for too long)... I got used to it.  I had a great time.  I even managed to cross over my feet and ALMOST skate like I used to.  I haven't skated in probably 10 years.  Definitely some good times.  BTW -- no falls from me!  Still got it!  Plan is to back in two weeks on a Saturday night when its more hype!  Check out the pictures below.

Sunday, November 6, 2011

Weigh In for 11.06.11

Weigh-In:  214.2

I'm up by one!  No fault but my own... I would like to say, no comment.  However, I know what I did this past week... (photo to follow)

Weekly Re-cap:

Monday --- Over calories by 77 for the day, got 72 ounces of water in and made poor food choice (which included a chili cheese dog)
Tuesday --- Under calories, got in 48 ounces of water (under water goal for day) and made poor food choice (ate out for lunch at a mexican restaurant, I did cut that portion down.  And then ate chines for dinner)
Wednesday --- Under calories, got in 72 ounces of water.  Actually stuck to the good food.
Thursday --- Over calories by 2 for the day, got in 72 ounces of water for day but ate lunch at work (not great food and really hard to track the calories on).
Friday --- Under calories, got in 72 ounces of water.  But horrible food choices yet again... donut for breakfast.  Lots of frozen food with high sodium.  Ahhh!

And don't even get me started on Saturday's food choices........ so overall, I expected a gain.  I have done horrible this past week and really gone off track.  I'm pretty much over the pity-party I have given myself for the past 3 weeks.  I've been eating whatever I really wanted, even with guilt and knowing better.  I've been mad, sad, depressed....... all of the above.  I'm over it!  I want to lose weight and I want to actually do well on losing some real pounds by the 1st of 2012. 

Now I am participating with fellow bandster Trisha on this challenge, so a new week approaches and its time to seriously commit to this thing and make some moves!  NO MORE EXCUSES >>> Fat Amanda!

Friday, November 4, 2011

Anxiety/Depression, New Challenge!

I can't focus for nothing at work.  I am VERY stressed out with finances at home (not sure why I keep freakin because we're okay for now).  I had a really bad day yesterday (I actually cried in front of a co-worker, I don't cry at work).  Usually I leave the crying for my shower.  I feel like I'm going crazy... seriously, I have a lot of anxiety and I'm not sure why.

Thats my biggest question right now, WHY am I feeling like this?  I just feel off. 

Add in that with all of this anxiety, it is really triggering me with making bad food choices.  Seriously!  I also get home and feel exhausted... that I don't want to do anything.  I wonder if this is depression and anxiety at the same time? Hmm.

I know my therapist mentioned getting something for it, but I figured I could handle it on my own.  Uggh!  Thats the other thing, I don't want to go to the doctor because I have a high deductible health plan and have not come close to meeting the deductible... so for me to get a prescription, it will cost the doctor visit.  FML!  You see all these worries going on with me?  [EDIT:  Called doc, spoke to the nurse and because I am seeing a therapist, I may be able to get my prescription without visiting the doctor in person **crosses fingers**]  [EDIT Again:  Doctor's office called, no visit needed... and their sending the prescription to the pharmacy, YAY!  I love my OB's office.]

Anywho... onto other things >> I will be doing this challenge with Trisha called Kickin' Kriss Kringle's Kookies in the Kooter Challenge.  The goal is to lose 20 lbs by January 1, 2012.  Now thats a hefty goal for me.  Technically, that is less than 2 months away.  I'm sure I can do this.  But I'm so scared of failing.  I also know I need something like this to keep me motivated and in the game of weight loss.  Plus I know its best to do weight loss in small increments..... and eventually I will get to where I need to be.  So I am going to do this!  So I plan on working on the graphic badge for the challenge this weekend (when I really have nothing else to do)... just been really tired and out of it (due to above, I believe) this past week.  Hoping it turns out good!  Lol.  The next steps to complete this major goal for me include the following:
  • Getting a food scale (I found the BL food scale at Walmart for 19 bucks) and I need to start weighing my food, especially the dinner portions since that is where I usually mess my day up!
  • No more guesstimating on food portions, be exact.
  • Follow Lap Band rules.
  • Sign up for E-Mealz website to get Menu Plans for dinners on the low-cal diet
  • As for eating out, curb it to only once every 2 weeks & make wise food choices, as well as watch portions (take my handy TR measuring cup to make sure).
  • No candy, cookies, cakes or any other sweets except on actual holiday (Christmas, Thanksgiving) and on my Birthday (coming to you on December 5th!)
  • Exercise at least 3 days per week and it must mean I actually sweat!
First weigh in counted will be this Sunday's since thats when I do my normal weigh-in's.  Lets see how this goes...

I can do this.  I know I can.

Also..... plans of Flag Football tournament this weekend and rollerskating with the kids (I haven't skated in years, hope my legs work right).

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Stress Biting, Crazy Call

Some interesting things lately.  I may lay it out bullet style mid-way through this post.  So I've been pretty stressed out regarding of all things MONEY (the thing most people worry about).  A lot of things have finally caught up to our money situations and well... with the trip hubby took unexpectedly to Houston and having to get him back in school again (there was a fee for that), it kind of set us back a little further. 

I think thats why I've had snacky moments and then add in that I've been chewing the HELL out of my fingernails.  Yes, a bad habit I've had since a kid.  I don't smoke, nor drink (very often) but I will bite my lil' nubs like its nothing.  This is the most recent damage.  Ugghh!  I need to leave them alone.  I haven't bit them this bad in a LONG time.  I bit them so bad it hurts when I type. 

I'm hoping things get better soon.  I'm sure they will.

So yesterday... at work I got a "prank call"... or so I believe that.  It was the strangest and kind of funny thing. 

Me: Long Term Care Claims, Amanda speaking.
Him:  Hi.
Me:  Hello, how can I help you?
Him:  I'm your sex slave for the day.
Me:  Huh?  I'm sorry, who is this?
Him:  Ronnie.
Me:  Okayyy... Ummm.  Whats going on? (very confused at this point)
Him:  Your husband hired a sex slave for you for the day, Happy Halloween!
Me:  What?
Him:  (he laughs)
Me:  I'm sorry, who are you again?

(Hung Up)

Yeah, thats how my day started yesterday.  And unfortunately it looked like he was transferred to my line, so no way of catching the phone number.  Awkward.  Lol.

[EDIT:  Good news... some things came through on the financial front, looks like we'll be okay.  Budget, Budget, Budget!]

As for last night... the family stayed in and it was nice.  Me and the hubby were invited to go out with some friends to downtown Austin.  Lots of people head down to 6th Street and show off their costumes.  Lol.  But we decided to stay in and ended up watching American Horror Story.... very good by the way.