I'm not sure where my head is right now. I guess I can say I'm totally off track on the whole weight loss thing. And I'm having a hard time getting back on it. Where's the drive, where's the motivation? I really want to do this thing and get healthy... but I'm almost content with things. Why? I'm not sure.
Its like I don't want to deal with this right now. Example >>> lack of not blogging as much.
The only good thing happening at this point is I'm still tracking my food. I haven't gave that up. Its the water intake (that I'm lacking more lately) and the total lack of exercise. I know if I exercise, it will help this process even more. I know what I'm suppose to be doing...... I know this, but why can't I just do it!
Ugggh... I hate this feeling.
Truth is... I'm stressed. I can feel it finally catching up to me. You would think it would cause the opposite but I'm noticing I am more snacky lately because of it. I'm stuffing my stomach... knowing damn well, I'm not even hungry. I'm arguing in my head....... and then I hit "f%*k it" mode. Then I feel the guilt of it later.