Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Just too damn FuNnY!

Okay, so I ain't really said nothing about this...but I guess its about that time for me to air it. Even if these other girls/young ladies read it. It might be hard to believe but I read everything in David's inboxes here on MySpace. Why? Well hell I admit I got major trust issues and even I can admit David was a major "man whore" prior to us being together (I know EVERYTHING he's done to you, you and yes....even YOU!). However, he hasn't done nothing since we've been together to actually make me think he's cheating. But because he loves me, I get access to these things...so when I'm having an insecure moment, yeah I read it. LOL.

But here's the kicker..........why do some feel the need to use my name like you know me? David isn't afraid of what you will write in comments because I see it all most of the time. But to use my name, like we're all cool or in a way to kind of suggest David might hide it from me. Come on now? Next, I don't understand these girls asking him the ultimate question that it seems all girls ask after a relationship is over...and its been over. That question: "What did I do wrong? Why did you end it?". Look the answer to this......you didn't do anything wrong, hell your probably an awesome chic...who has a lot to offer but he wasn't ready to settle down. I'm sure there were signs prior to the cut off of communication that he was through with you and what ya'll had going on. And please believe.........if he was only calling you in the evenings to basically visit you around 11-3am...then leave after ya'll are done, well it was...what it was. Bootycall. And you weren't the only one....

And the final thing.........telling him you'll always love him or he'll always have a special place in your heart. PLEASE let it go!

Damn...where is the respect or value for others relationships? I admit, there are a few of his "girl" friends that are actually genuinely happy for him/us as a whole...and I even talk to them. Shhh...some of you even call my cell phone because he's used my line. Don't hang up on me, I ain't gonna flip out and cuss ya ass out. If I felt you were a threat, I wouldn't even answer the damn line.........because YES, I know ya'lls phone numbers...their saved in my phone too. Lol. Hell I even tried to let one of you know his cell phone number so you could call him directly.

And I know some of ya'll read my page........so this is for ya'll. Just figured I'd give ya'll the FYI basically because the sly comments...and somewhat utter disrespect for what we have going on is straight up foul! And certain people are doing that. If it ain't you...then great but there are certain trifling heffa's that fall in that category, they know who they are.

Thats my 2cents.

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Toxic Relationships

This is to anyone who's dealing with drama & bullshit from someone who isn't worthy of what you have to offer.

Toxic Relationships

'When a blind man leads a blind man, they both end up in the ditch'(Matthew ) (15:14TM)

Your development, and in some cases your healing, can only take place when you walk with the right people!

Remember the story of the scorpion that asked a frog to carry himacross the river because he could not swim? How do I know you will not sting me? the frog asked. If I do, we'll both drown, he replied. So the scorpion hopped on. Half way across the river the scorpion stung him. As they were drowning the frog said, 'You promised you wouldn't. Why did you sting me? The scorpion replied, I cannot help it, it's my nature to sting.

Learn to recognize toxic relationships and walk away from them before they take you down with them. A toxic relationship is like a body part with gangrene; if you do not amputate, the infection will spread. Unless you have the courage to cut off what will not heal, you will end up losing much more.

You cannot partner successfully with someone who does not share your goals. When you feel passionately about something but they do not, it is like trying to dance the fox trot with someone who only wants to waltz. You picked the wrong dance partner. Do not get tied up with someone who does not share your God-given purpose.

Some issues can be corrected through teaching and leadership, but you cannot teach somebody to care. And if they do not care, they will infect your environment, ruin your productivity and break your rhythm with constant complaints.

So ask God, 'Who belongs in my life?'

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Your So Vain...You Probably Think This Is About You...

Quite possibly it is..........and most likely it isn't.

FYI to the idiot thats stating I'm talking shit about you on myspace........TONY, I said something about your sorry ass how long ago? It wasn't nothing new that people don't know about your ass. And if others read this and send you the messages I write here, your ass is late as fuck as well! Pay attention when things are wrote. And the fact still remains the same...Tony's ass is lame! That ain't new or even worth writing about anymore. So thats it about him on my page!

Outside of that.....to my true friendships, I know because I'm pregnant right now I rarely see people...I really hope its not because you think since I'm pregnant I can't get out. At least ask me and let me decline on my own, shit. And why be afraid to tell me your doing some no-good shit? I could careless, I'm your damn friend regardless and you could give me more credit than that. Yes, I might not like the shit your doing. I might give you advice to sway you the other way (since thats what friends do! and are supposed to do!) but thats because I love your punk ass and some times you need some freakin' REAL TALK! Outside of that....I ain't your mama, I know this.....and it ain't for me to say well if you do this or that, I'm never talking/associating w/ your ass again. Nope, your grown ass women...I can't control that and I know how hard it is out there today when it comes to love, relationships, work and so on. Just know I am here...hell even I can't go out and drink it up, I can be that ear that listens.....and I admit I am having to live vicarously through your bad ways. Hehe...Remember I love you! and you better love me cause you know the shit I've done in my past (hopefully won't happen in the future). I might get my ass whooped by David if I did do the crap I did to Tony...haha...or the others.

As for my baby growing in my belly's........lol. I'm such a fat ass, I admit. Well I'm on week 23...thanks to all you bastards for not posting responses to my handsome lil' guy's ultrasound pics...ya'll suck! I know it looks weird...but hey, thats my baby, just know...once he's fatter, he'll be beautiful like me. Oh and for those who didn't know..his name is officially Brayden Matthew Blake. I gave my step-daddy's name as his middle name. My step-daddy has been there for me forever, he's a great man even though dealing w/ things like everyone else. I love you Matt!

Outside of that....I had to go do my 3-hour glucose test........blahhhh, that meant I had to have my blood drawn 4 different times, drink that orange drink...which is way worse than the orange drink they give for the 1-hour test you get at first. I felt like getting sick, so I didn't eat for like 14 hours....I'm starving, David and I run to Wendy's and well........I admit, I might have freakin' Gestational Diabetes and my fat ass is eating a Baconator but dammnnnn them buns are good! I know I know...I eat it for the freakin' bun. I admit, I take the bacon off. Yeah, it makes no sense...and? When have I ever made total sense. Haha. So I eat that, get home...take a nap, wake up feeling like total crap. So who knows if my stomach ache is due to that giant fatty burger or that freakin' sugary orange drink.

Owww...and my cable/internet is on for those who give a damn, I see no one noticed I've been gone. But I'm going to do my best to blog and be interactive...I admit, I'm practically married and seem to have settled down a lot on things. I'ma work on it..........til then, LOVE YOU ALL!

Oh yeah, those affected by Hurricane Ike....ya'll are in my prayers, especially all my peoples in Houston.

For the ladies in search of that man (real talk here)

Had to add this as a reminder for my friends and well women struggling now to find that one special person in their life.......this comes from a great friend with that REAL honest stuff. Something for those single ladies to ponder! Its real deal and all in love.

Please beware of what's about to be read...

Men decide to get married and then look for a wife. Note the difference in order. So if a guy says he's not looking for anything serious, take his words seriously. If he's not going in your direction, get off the bus & wait for the right one.

Does this man want you? Is he pursuing you? The man who is right for you will pursue you, and Gods hand in the relationship will be clear. No guessing, no fleeces, no dead ends. Scripture says: "He who finds a wife finds what is good and receives favor from the Lord" (Prov. 18:22). Note - who finds whom? THE MAN FINDS THE WIFE. From the beginning of time, God has transported men & women across the world in order to put them together. At the RIGHT TIME, He will bring that man on the scene and he will find you. In Gods perfect design, the man is the one who recognizes his mate. Adam has no problem recognizing that Eve is his missing rib. You do not need to strategically place yourself anywhere. You don't have to help a guy out because he's shy! Men will do whatever they have to do to get what they truly want. The man in your life should recognize you as the pearl of great price in his life and be willing to do whatever he must in order to gain your hand. If he is passive about gaining your affections, take it as a sign that he is not interested. Mothers have suggested that it is a good idea to marry a man who loves you more than you love him. As cold as that may sound, it actually might be scriptural if you stop to think about it:

"We love him because he first loved us" (1 John 4:19). Until then, take the ultimate chill pill. You don't need a bunch of men in your life to make you feel all right about yourself. You need only one man your man, the one God has selected to select you. And trust me, the right man at the wrong time can be just as awful as the wrong man at any time. So trust Gods timing in this. He is the ultimate matchmaker.

Relax, sit pretty and allow yourself to be found. Again - WAIT until the man voices his intentions. He should take the lead in establishing the relationship. You may have an inkling that he is the one, but God will use the man to set the tone of the relationship. Allow him the opportunity to woo you - this is your first act of submission. Jesus set the standard for all men to follow. They should love us first. And they should lead the relationship...then into marriage...they will lead....submission...is the key....but when your heart is lost in God...it becomes easier Ladies...alot easier...I know....talk about hard head make a soft ashhh..until then....be your 'His Woman of Favor'....do your thang...being that strong independent faithful woman to Him...b/c with or without a man...we have to be this...its just when we get one...its makes things alot smoother b/c your man's/husbands actions shoudn't dictate yours...only His...which will bring you to the next in order....