Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Something must be in the air...
And I guess by me not only putting my situation out in the open on here and on FB... these friends are coming to me. It makes me feel pretty good that they trust me enough to tell of these things. I seriously have all of them in my prayers right now. We're strong people (cause yes, that applies to females/males) and you will be okay. Go through the grieving/break up process or choose to mend/heal the damage with your partner... its all okay to feel it. Thats the key, feel those feelings. Cry your eyes out. Your allowed to feel all of it and don't be ashamed. Your not a fool! Your not stupid for missing things or thinking things were okay. You were in love with this person and you trusted them. Its not you, its that other person dealing with personal issues. Now its on you how you want to deal with it. Whatever you decision, all that matters is that your happy in the end.
It kind of feels like a letter to myself as well....
As for my own personal situation, I really didn't put the reason we broke up or had issues. The truth is, I caught him "talking" to another woman. The chic knew he was married and well, he let her into our relationship. It even got to the point of him packing up and going to his mother's home in Houston. I guess after a week of being a part and well seeing me decide to go out with friends (because thats what friends do, they get you out of the house and MAKE you have fun!) and something I did on purpose to make him jealous (yes, not the mature route but I knew if I did this thing... he would react and was hoping he would realize the mistakes he made). Nothing horrible, just slight fibbing to get a rise and it worked. But then again he was saying he missed me prior... I just had to push him more.
He attended his first therapy session alone, it went pretty well from what he says. Now next week we go together. So worried what she is going to say to me. LOL. I admit, I'm no angel. I'm a tough cookie.
Now on the weight thing >>> I started taking the Magnesium Oxide pills yesterday to help with the stomach issues. Went first thing this morning. Coincidence? We shall see. I would like it to be everyday! Lol. I am in day 2 of this week and did pretty well yesterday with my calorie intake and got in 96 ounces of water. I really want to flush out this damn sodium... I really think I'm retaining water. How the hell do you gain 4-5 pounds in a week? Is that even possible? I swear I stepped on the scale and it said I had now gained back 5 pounds. [side note: I wonder if my scale battery is low? Gotta check that.] Either way... here's hoping that the water this week helps weigh in day on Sunday!
Posted by Manda at 4:19 PM