Not due to weight loss issues... in fact, I haven't been eating much because of all the personal things happening.
The deal is, my husband and I have separated and will most likely be heading for divorce. Then again, its only been about a week since he left. I guess I'm still holding out hope that things will be fixed. That its only a temporary thing but then again, I almost feel like it is done.
I wanted to post something a few weeks ago when the problems really began, and I did. Then I deleted it. I was hurt. He's done some messed up things. But my heart wants to forgive him, while my mind says let him go. We've been together for almost 5 years and been through a lot. And I didn't marry him to just divorce him almost 2 years later. We have a son together. We built a family. The whole thing is just very disappointing, embarrassing and me feeling like a total failure in yet another relationship.
I know in the end, I have done all I can to make things work. I'm not perfect, nor have I ever believed I was. But I do feel I really put my all into making things work. And for whatever silly reason, I still want to. Even after him hurting me big time. Breaking trust and just being selfish.
I watch these kids and their in just as much pain. I just don't know what to do right now. Its a very confusing, emotionally stressful time for me.
I hope things get better soon. :(