So after some days of feeling down... I think I've realized that the reason I'm feeling this stressed feeling is because I want to change so many things about me, the things I do day to day... not just healthwise, but my relationships. Add in the aftermath of Christmas... and dealing with birthdays, lots of money going out of the bank and not enough coming in to cover all of it. Yes! I was freaking. And yes, I was handling all of my stress with food.
I do have to say... this is my first real attempt of being an active participant in losing weight. And during this time I've been dealing with all the guilty feelings I have toward food now. Prior to this.... straight denial. I hate feeling like this regarding food, probably why I was in denial and why my clothes got smaller.
I've also sort of realized I have no real goals, nothing truly keeping me accountable besides the scale and well I have to get things together. Especially if I want to really fulfill the word of COMMIT I chose for this year.