Not sure if I'm hungry or not...

Its crazy, I've been on clear liquids for the past 4 days. I think my stomach is saying feed me, Seymore! Okay, not really but I feel the grumbling. I keep saying I'm hungry to whoever's in the room when I see food on tv or get a lil' smell but really, I'm not hungry. I wonder if its a habit?

The liquids are filling me up for the most part, I'm so tired today. I do get this weird sensation when I go from laying down to sitting up. Like air moves up, not sure if thats the gas from the surgery or what. It almost feels like a painful burp, w/ out the burp.

So come Tuesday of next week, I can start drinking protein shakes and regular liquids. I want them now, I'm so tired of chicken/beef broth...apple juice...water, blah!

So the Weightloss Journey Begins

I just got home from the hospital, I had to stay overnight due to insurance purposes. I'm actually doing pretty good. Not as bad as I originally thought it would be, painwise. Probably due to the pain meds I've been taking. LOL.

So here's my first photo, I started at 243lbs and when I weighed myself yesterday...I was 238.5lbs, most likely due to my 2-week pre-op diet (I was on the Atkins).


So far so good, I may take some pics of my scars from the surgery. Their healing up nicely, already have scabs on them. I've had some pain due to getting used to the band being in there and the gas they used to inflate my stomach for the surgery. I was even lucky enough to share a room with my co-worker. LOL. She had it done the same day as well. At this point, I'm on a 2 week liquid diet. Yes, into next week during Thanksgiving but I may be able to puree stuff so that will be interesting since I'm so picky about my food not touching each other. Haha.

Just thought I'd update everyone!

A lot going on...

So, I never made the official announcement that David and I are back together. So there you go! LOL. After 3 weeks of being separated and lots of talking, I said he could come back. And yes, he begged and cried. For real! No exaggeration plus thats just not me to do so. He was allowed to come back with stipulations and so far he's done all of them. However we still have our moments like any relationship where we don't get along but its definitely a different vibe this go. And all I can do is pray that God assists us through all the trying times. He knows what he's doing with us.

Outside of that, I've taken over doing a new set of claims. So for the past month its been pretty hard working through it and getting things in order. But its also been a challenge. And well, I love challenges. So I am actually happy I took it on and happy to say that I accomplished it.

Next, I'm not sure if I even mentioned it on here but I'm getting the lap band surgery on November 17th! Thats this Tuesday! And yes, David is being supportive of that. He was a little worried I'd get all skinny and sexy on him....and just leave him. I was like what? Men and their insecurities. But now he's on board. We've been doing the Atkin's diet together the past 2 weeks. Me more stricter since its my pre-op diet, however I've had my set backs. Not sure how people do diets. I openly admit, I don't do diets! At all, I can't be restricted and its just a waste for like 2 weeks.

I plan on taking some pics today so that I can start logging it on here. Its so unreal that surgery has come so fast. I'm scared and nervous. Fact is, I've never had any type of surgery! Not c-section, NOTHING. So the thought of someone fiddling with my insides worries me. But I did have to get an endoscopy and colonscopy for my gastro clearance and don't remember it...so it can't be too bad? Well I know this time I'll wake up with more pain but still. :)

So thats my quick update....

Get the Hint...

Uggh, I just wish some females would get the hint and leave things alone. So, since David are now back together...we've been doing well. I've been keeping things to myself and making sure we work on things for our relationship. But then you have some people who are so unhappy in their own life that they feel its necessary to disrupt other's lives.

Yet another female from David's past is trying to pry her way into our life. I don't get it, if a man or a person in general tells you that he's going back to the person he's been with and to NOT contact him. What does that mean? I don't understand how someone could get that confused. Then you hit them up on FB to add them as a friend, you think he's not going to tell you AGAIN to leave him alone.

But then, I'm the one that gets blamed for it. No, don't get me confused...I'm not that immature to go under my man's page to send another female a message. Not my style. Plus I've talked to this heffa before, so why be scared to now. She had the nerve to tell me that she knows David so well that he wouldn't do that. Bitch? You know him so well? Really? I've lived and been with this man for 3 years..........what the hell do you know about him? Nada! If you knew him so well, wouldn't you get it that he has USED you for nothing but ass and money in the past. That he really don't even like you like that but to use you because he knows you get so caught up in "trying" to be with him.

Its sad and pathetic, I hate seeing females look stupid behind dudes. But damn, get the hint already. Believe, he don't want your ass.........remember you came stalking him and still seem to, to this day!