Secret Santa, New Weigh In & Family Time

So we did Secret Santa at work........and mine was of course my lap-band Buddy.  She wrapped those gifts so beautifully and the big surprise gift on Friday was:

TAAAA DAAAAAAA!!!

I don't think I've ever been so excited to get a scale for weighing myself.  Its soooo nice.  I really needed one and I weighed myself and I'm down 4lbs in the past 2 weeks.  So in total since the beginning of November, I've lost 19 pounds.  I'm so proud of myself.  I really didn't think I'd lose weight in the past two weeks since I've been able to eat normally again.  I go in for my first fill (aka tightening of the band) on the 29th, so I know for sure I'll lose more weight since I have to do the liquid thing for a couple days.  This is just crazy to me...to have lost that amount of weight in this amount of time.  I am just so thankful for my co-worker aka Secret Santa aka Lap Band Buddy.  She has no idea what this really means to me.

Outside of that, I went Christmas shopping today.  It was really hectic, crazy and all that wonderful stuff that Christmas is.  We got some clothes, toys and things for the kids.  They will be very excited.  I'll be doing some wrapping tonight.  We'll do some last minute shopping on Wednesday but I think we're good.

So other than that.........I'm happy!

Today's My Birthday...

and I had my moment of self-pity. I'm so happy I have my BBC girls there to help remind me of where I'm at and what blessings I have.

At times, I wish I had IRL friends that were there for me more often. And I admit, at times I might not be the best friend IRL as well. I just wish I had someone near me, I think thats the biggest problem. All my IRL friends live far from me and its hard keeping in touch because we're not around each other but once every 3 months or so. Plus we're all grown and living our own lives. But sometimes and mainly on my birthday, I just want that big ol' surprise or big "to do" about my day. It just doesn't happen. I guess thats just part of being an adult or is it? Thats what I wonder. So I cried.........like a big ass baby.

I see photos of one of my IRL friend's other friends and their big ol' birthday parties, and wish that I could be the receiver of one of those one time. But I have to think back, last year was the crappiest birthdays EVER! Yeah, I had people say Happy Birthday.......but that was it, no card...no cake, no dinner. David and I were going through things and he wasn't even there.

So this year, I have my man.....I have all my children and we are doing great. I just still feel like I'm missing something today. The big deal of it being my day. I have to admit, I'm an attention seeking person. Haha. Then there's the other thing.......NO CAKE because I have the lap band. That sucks booty.

So after crying.......I do feel better. I just hope to see some friends this weekend to get out and about. As one of my BBC friends said, I need a break from the routine.......hopefully it happens this weekend.

Official Weigh In

So I had my moment where I thought getting the lap band was a mistake. Especially doing the liquid phase and watching my family eat real food. But I survived and I did get to eat something for Thanksgiving and going forward. I've been doing very well, feeling back to normal actually and still trying to learn my way around with this lap band. Luckily, no throwing up episodes but a few moments where I felt my food move slowly and I guess get stuck....but I managed to keep it down.

So I went for my follow up appointment today and I am down 10lbs since my surgery date. I had lost 5lbs with my 2 week pre-op diet, so in total in the past 4 weeks I've lost 15lbs. I'm so proud of myself. Mainly, its me cutting those sodas and breads out. I admit, my weakness has been bread, rolls, pastas, etc. I love them.......their so delicious! But its exciting to be back down to the weight I was right after having Brayden. And even more amazing to lose that weight in a months time. I guess I never realized I was eating the wrong stuff to keep that weight on.

I go back for my first fill on December 29th, luckily after the holidays so I can eat some things. And hope to lose more within the next month. It would be nice! So I'll see how things go...

Whoop whoop!