I'm backkk...

And after the long period of time being gone... yes, I admit I have gained back approximately 12.8 lbs.  Do I feel bad, kind of.  But then again, I just chose to give up the entire thing.  I was tired of dealing with the whole thing.  I was being extremely lazy.

I have no excuses.  I basically stopped all logging of food, ate whatever I wanted... when I wanted.  Didn't follow any lapband rules.  Didn't even attempt exercising.  I even stopped drinking water like I should.  All built habits out the window.  And the result... that gain and horrible cholesterol levels. 

Where am I at now... who knows, I just know I need to get back down again.  I kind of feel like maybe if I make smaller goals of losing, then it will not seem so overwhelming.  I have a hard time sticking to things too.

So here I am again... getting back up again to lose the weight I've gained back and get back to healthy again. 

In other news.... I have a new BFF.  Like seriously... her name is Crystal.  We have a ton in common, we met because our two oldest children were in the same 5th grade class and are now 7th graders.  We hang out a ton and now even work together.  We both realized we are enabling each other's bad habits regarding food and well...... weight loss.  So we are going to attack the weight head on together.  Its nice to have this support nearby.  I am hoping this rubs off on my husband as well... I think he was shocked to see his weight hit over 300 lbs himself.  So its time to get in gear... even with the holidays coming. 

I will try to blog more about other things happening.  Today is the new beginning....... back to food logging, food weighing, water consumption, vitamins again and even exercising.  Gotta get my fat ass slimmed down... :)