Well its been awhile since I've posted. Just so much happening in life. I guess I really didn't feel like saying much on here. I know I haven't been doing well with the weight loss thing. Disappointing since my one year anniversary since the surgery came and went...and well I'm only at about a 30 pound weight loss.
Majority of the setbacks is myself. And dealing with that fact hasn't been realize. Considering I tend to beat myself up more than someone else would. I did start getting fills done again in August. I did two, but they were like baby ones because the nurse was afraid of how my stomach would act since it had been 5 months prior. Truth is, I think the lack of fills is what also helped in stopping my progress. I'm still not at my "green spot", but I'm almost there. I had a new fill done the week of Thanksgiving and since then, its been working a lot better.
When I went back that day in November...she said I had gained 3 pounds between August & November. But since getting the fill, I've lost the 3 pounds. I'm going back for another fill this month...and hopefully this gets me to the "green" zone, then add in actual exercise and I should be on a kick start for getting to ONEDERLAND. Whats that? Getting my weight down to 100's. I'm almost there...and I can't wait!
I also turned 30 this month. Celebrated with bowling with a few friends. Yet it was a depressing moment, I heard of Birthday Depression and I had just that. Year 30 is a marker. And most of the depression came from feeling lonely. Lonely not in my relationship with my husband but not having female friends. That best friend thing. I hate that I have that...but I'm getting better about that feeling. Overall, I know that I have a few great friends that always seem to come through. Thats what counts. That saying about you can only count your real number of friends on you hand, TRUE! But I do have to say, it does appear the weight loss has helped. I noticed in this picture of me bowling that I do look thinner than before. Crazy! I guess like hubby said, I have that "fat girl" mentality. I wonder if that will ever go away. Hmmm...
But thats a whole other story...........so here I go again on the re-start/revamp of my weight loss journey. Along with all the other things going on in life!
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