Alright, I mentioned in a blog or so ago about my loud ass neighbors. They moved in back in December. Their loud as hell! And surprisingly, I haven't said anything to them about it yet. I've been contemplating on if I should go upstairs when they do their "krump" dancing up there and say something...or going to the office about it. Yeah, thats an inside joke...David said he thinks their practicing their "krump" dancing.....I said its either that or someone's getting an ass beating up there. I swear....its so bad, they shake my apartment. I mean, my diningroom table starts shaking and my pictures. It wouldn't work my nerves if it wasn't happening all the time. And its usually between 10pm and 2am that its like that. I don't get it....
But here's the topper.....
So I had to have maintenance come in and fix my toilet today. It clogged up so bad it went into our bathtub. Well we had an incident like 6 months ago or so...and we did do that, because we were using those wipes you "supposedly" can flush. Obviously not, but since then haven't put anything but toilet paper down the toilet. Well we get a clog today.....and it was wayyyyyyy worse, the tub was almost filled up.
So maintenance came, they said it was the worst they've seen.....and found out it was paper towels, a bunch of them. Well I guess all 3 floors are set up on the same pipes, we're on the 2nd floor. I told them it wasn't us. It wasn't the 1st floor because he came up here to say something about the water going to his bathroom since they were trying to un-clog mine. They went to the 3rd floor, they didn't answer...he went back up again, finally they answered and even let him in...tried to say it wasn't them. But when the maintenance guy went to the same bathroom (which is above mine)......there were two rolls of paper towels on the floor near their toilet. And they tried to claim the main bathroom was the one clogged. Pssshhh. Then they have the nerve to get mad at the maintenance man. WTF?
So now they clog up my toilet and tub w/ their nasty shit cause their wipin' their ass w/ paper towels. I mean seriously..........who is that stupid to put paper towels down a toilet and think its fine?????? Are they that fuckin' broke to buy some damn toilet paper? Hell.....toilet paper is cheaper than paper towels. What the hell is wrong w/ these people?
UGGGGHH! End result though...and I guess because they tried to give the maintenance man attitude......their getting a lease violation. Haha.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Okay, someone explain to me...
Since when did it become okay to mess w/ other people's men? I realize this has been happening forever, but it seems more openly expressed as okay. Why do women drop themselves to that low point to think its okay to be with another woman's man? I don't understand it. Or maybe I do somewhat.......because I have encountered one man where at the beginning I didn't know he had this person. He told me a lot of lies, then eventually, truth came out he was married to her. Yet he kept lying......I knew he was, I knew he was still w/ her as a husband. I accepted it because I wanted him and tried to convince myself his lies were the truth. Even towards the end of our relationship, I even tried to tell myself...well its just about the sex, thats all I need. However, I know if I had known the truth from get go.......that he was still w/ his wife, I would never have taken that path. I did feel guilty and eventually, we parted ways. Thank God for myself, because yes....I knew I deserved way more than that type of relationship and respect from a man.
I just don't understand how women can live with themselves, knowing their giving up their goods to someone that is using them. They really believe their empowering themselves because they know the truth......the truth that this man is sexing them, while their other half is at home. But really, is that empowerment? or more so a lack of quality in you.....the fact that you can lower your standards so low, he can use you for whatever... To think your better than that woman at home because you know. Haha. Not really...fact is, that knowledge should help you make a better decision. Not only for respect of that other woman, but respect for yourself. I think us women down grade ourselves when we accept these situations. Remember, men only do what us women allow them to do. That goes for the "other" woman as well. To say your fine with that situation....I think shows how much you feel about yourself and worth.
And even being through it myself, I learned from it. Karma is a bitch and I feel you do this to someone.......its going to come right around back to you when you do find that person you want to be with seriously. Basically, I feel no sympathy for those that do hypocritical things of this nature.......and feel the pain of it later themselves.
Its just one of those things...I still don't understand.
I just don't understand how women can live with themselves, knowing their giving up their goods to someone that is using them. They really believe their empowering themselves because they know the truth......the truth that this man is sexing them, while their other half is at home. But really, is that empowerment? or more so a lack of quality in you.....the fact that you can lower your standards so low, he can use you for whatever... To think your better than that woman at home because you know. Haha. Not really...fact is, that knowledge should help you make a better decision. Not only for respect of that other woman, but respect for yourself. I think us women down grade ourselves when we accept these situations. Remember, men only do what us women allow them to do. That goes for the "other" woman as well. To say your fine with that situation....I think shows how much you feel about yourself and worth.
And even being through it myself, I learned from it. Karma is a bitch and I feel you do this to someone.......its going to come right around back to you when you do find that person you want to be with seriously. Basically, I feel no sympathy for those that do hypocritical things of this nature.......and feel the pain of it later themselves.
Its just one of those things...I still don't understand.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Blessings in Disguise
So for those who didn't know, I was laid off exactly on the day I was due back to my job from maternity leave. It sucked, especially w/ how the economy has been going. I had a feeling of things coming to a lay off w/ this company for awhile, things were slow and literally we were fighting for work. But I was holding out hope that it wouldn't lead to that. Well, I was among the percentage that got their job eliminated. I do have to say the company was good to us and made sure to cover me some, I got a severenes package.
I was worried though, mainly with how long it would take to find another job. I mean most companies are scaling back on pay increases and hiring. So I wasn't sure what to expect. Last time I was let go from a job was 8 years ago during the recession back in 2001. So its been a bit scary and worrying me. Especially since David's been on unemployment himself since October.
But what they say about things being a blessing in disguise is true. I just prayed about things and did my best not to stress too much. I interviewed w/ a company I was trying to get on w/ last summer again...and got the call today, I was offered the position at my same rate of pay I was making at my previous job. Its also good because they have overtime. I can actually start making some good money again, the other place...due to slow business obviously didn't offer it. I knew then, that was a bad sign. Thats also why I had been looking last year. Its obvious, as one door closes.......another opens and things work out how they should.
Another thing, in the midst of losing my job.....I managed to get a new ride! LOL. Its a 2006 PT Cruiser. I love it, and it fits me. Plus David managed to get started w/ a new job too, driving a school bus for one of the school districts here. He's almost done w/ his training and will have his CDL license soon.
Oh...and Brayden got his first shots today. My poor baby, he actually did good though, no major crying. Which shocked me considering he's a major cry baby any other time. Haha. And he's finally sleeping through the night! Do you know how wonderful that is! 7+ hours each night......my baby is so good. Not sure if its due to a formula change or just cause he's getting older.
Aries also finished up his basketball for one league. They did pretty well for the team playing together for the first time. 4 wins and 3 losses. The other teams were teams formed and staying together since like kindergarten. I signed him up for new Spring basketball w/ another program, not the same as this one but he can get his basketball skills down more and have some fun. Hoping to get the money together to get him signed up for a Basketball camp during the summer.As for Nati...she's Nati. Haha. She loves being a big sister and taking care of Brayden. Sometimes I have to remind her not to be too rough on him. Hopefully soon she will be signed up for gymnastics.
Thats about it on our updates..........and I'm excited to start w/ the new company come Monday.
I was worried though, mainly with how long it would take to find another job. I mean most companies are scaling back on pay increases and hiring. So I wasn't sure what to expect. Last time I was let go from a job was 8 years ago during the recession back in 2001. So its been a bit scary and worrying me. Especially since David's been on unemployment himself since October.
But what they say about things being a blessing in disguise is true. I just prayed about things and did my best not to stress too much. I interviewed w/ a company I was trying to get on w/ last summer again...and got the call today, I was offered the position at my same rate of pay I was making at my previous job. Its also good because they have overtime. I can actually start making some good money again, the other place...due to slow business obviously didn't offer it. I knew then, that was a bad sign. Thats also why I had been looking last year. Its obvious, as one door closes.......another opens and things work out how they should.
Another thing, in the midst of losing my job.....I managed to get a new ride! LOL. Its a 2006 PT Cruiser. I love it, and it fits me. Plus David managed to get started w/ a new job too, driving a school bus for one of the school districts here. He's almost done w/ his training and will have his CDL license soon.Oh...and Brayden got his first shots today. My poor baby, he actually did good though, no major crying. Which shocked me considering he's a major cry baby any other time. Haha. And he's finally sleeping through the night! Do you know how wonderful that is! 7+ hours each night......my baby is so good. Not sure if its due to a formula change or just cause he's getting older.
Aries also finished up his basketball for one league. They did pretty well for the team playing together for the first time. 4 wins and 3 losses. The other teams were teams formed and staying together since like kindergarten. I signed him up for new Spring basketball w/ another program, not the same as this one but he can get his basketball skills down more and have some fun. Hoping to get the money together to get him signed up for a Basketball camp during the summer.As for Nati...she's Nati. Haha. She loves being a big sister and taking care of Brayden. Sometimes I have to remind her not to be too rough on him. Hopefully soon she will be signed up for gymnastics.
Thats about it on our updates..........and I'm excited to start w/ the new company come Monday.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Haters (real talk)
Some words of wisdom...I got a few of these out there now.
Hater/ By Maya Angelou
A hater is someone who is jealous and envious and spends all their time trying to make you look small so they can look tall.
They are very negative people to say the least. Nothing is ever good enough!
When you make your mark, you will always attract some haters...
That's why you have to be careful with whom you share your blessings and your dreams, because some folk can't handle seeing you blessed...
It's dangerous to be like somebody else... If God wanted you to be like somebody else, He would have given you what He gave them! Right?
You never know what people have gone through to get what they have....
The problem I have with haters is that they see my glory, but they don't know my story...
If the grass looks greener on the other side of the fence, you can rest assured that the water bill is higher there too!
We've all got some haters among us!
Some people envy you because you can:
a) Have a relationship with God
b) Light up a room when you walk in
c) Start your own business
d) Tell a man / woman to hit the curb (if he / she isn't about the right thing)
e) Raise your children without both parents being in the home
Haters can't stand to see you happy. Haters will never want to see you succeed. Most of our haters are people who are supposed to be on our side.
How do you handle your undercover haters?
You can handle these haters by:
1. Knowing who you are & who your true friends are *(VERY IMPORTANT!!)
2. Having a purpose to your life: Purpose does not mean having a job. You can have a job and still be unfulfilled. A purpose is having a clear sense of what God has called you to be. Your purpose is not defined by what others think about you.
3. By remembering what you have is by divine prerogative and not human manipulation.
Fulfill your dreams! You only have one life to live...when its your time to leave this earth, you 'want' to be able to say, 'I've lived my life and fulfilled 'my' dreams,... Now I'm ready to go HOME!
When God gives you favor, you can tell your haters, 'Don't look at me...Look at Who is in charge of me...'
Pass this to all of your family & friends who you know are not hating on you including the person who sent it to you.
If you don't get it back, maybe you called somebody out! Don't worry about it, it's not your problem, it's theirs..
Just pray for them, that their life can be as fulfilled as yours! Watch out for Haters...BUT most of all don't become a HATER!'
A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man should have to seek Him first to find her.'
Maya Angelou
Remember:
When your heart is perfect toward God, God is obligated to bring you into the company of the people you need to know, and into the knowledge of the things you need to know, that are critical for your success in life,your destiny, and your purpose.
Hater/ By Maya Angelou
A hater is someone who is jealous and envious and spends all their time trying to make you look small so they can look tall.
They are very negative people to say the least. Nothing is ever good enough!
When you make your mark, you will always attract some haters...
That's why you have to be careful with whom you share your blessings and your dreams, because some folk can't handle seeing you blessed...
It's dangerous to be like somebody else... If God wanted you to be like somebody else, He would have given you what He gave them! Right?
You never know what people have gone through to get what they have....
The problem I have with haters is that they see my glory, but they don't know my story...
If the grass looks greener on the other side of the fence, you can rest assured that the water bill is higher there too!
We've all got some haters among us!
Some people envy you because you can:
a) Have a relationship with God
b) Light up a room when you walk in
c) Start your own business
d) Tell a man / woman to hit the curb (if he / she isn't about the right thing)
e) Raise your children without both parents being in the home
Haters can't stand to see you happy. Haters will never want to see you succeed. Most of our haters are people who are supposed to be on our side.
How do you handle your undercover haters?
You can handle these haters by:
1. Knowing who you are & who your true friends are *(VERY IMPORTANT!!)
2. Having a purpose to your life: Purpose does not mean having a job. You can have a job and still be unfulfilled. A purpose is having a clear sense of what God has called you to be. Your purpose is not defined by what others think about you.
3. By remembering what you have is by divine prerogative and not human manipulation.
Fulfill your dreams! You only have one life to live...when its your time to leave this earth, you 'want' to be able to say, 'I've lived my life and fulfilled 'my' dreams,... Now I'm ready to go HOME!
When God gives you favor, you can tell your haters, 'Don't look at me...Look at Who is in charge of me...'
Pass this to all of your family & friends who you know are not hating on you including the person who sent it to you.
If you don't get it back, maybe you called somebody out! Don't worry about it, it's not your problem, it's theirs..
Just pray for them, that their life can be as fulfilled as yours! Watch out for Haters...BUT most of all don't become a HATER!'
A woman's heart should be so hidden in Christ that a man should have to seek Him first to find her.'
Maya Angelou
Remember:
When your heart is perfect toward God, God is obligated to bring you into the company of the people you need to know, and into the knowledge of the things you need to know, that are critical for your success in life,your destiny, and your purpose.
Misconceptions
So this has been on my mind for a minute, I guess due to some situations with friends or foes recently. And it bothers me to have people think these things of me, at this moment. Especially those that I consider friends or have in the past. Those that I have tried to be the best friend possible to. I have been through lots of turmoil when it comes to relationships, ups and downs. I've learned from them too. I admit, I can be judgemental...but fact is, everyone is and to say your not...well, your full of it. But I know I've made changes over the years.....and for some, the ones that I fell out with because I didn't agree with things they were doing...well it seems still think that no matter what...I'm negative and thats all I'm trying to be towards them.
Yes, I am a blunt person. I say what is on my mind and what I feel. I think thats the best way to go about things...keep things open and honest so there's no room for misinterperations or miscommunication. I think on logic and to have someone tell me...."not everyone's logic is your logic", like I'm a dumbass and don't know this. Its obvious that not everyone thinks on my level, if that was the case........there wouldn't be a reason the bullshit exist in this world. And I'm not saying I'm better than anyone else but I know what I stand for and what I want in life. I know what I will or will not tolerate from people. I know I can be a bit harsh on people but thats because I care for them and I'm trying to look out for their best interest because I don't want to see them hurting later on down the road. Is that not what a friend is supposed to be? Maybe my standards for friendships or relationships are just too high for others to get.
I'm not a black and white kind of person, so I don't get why people assume...well she reacted this way when we fell out (just because they never understood why I said those things or what my real intentions were behind it in the first place), she's still this way today. I see gray and if they knew me so well.........they would see and understand why I said those things. I'm not about being negative or bringing others down, hell I feel like I'm more uplifting to people than anything. But I am about being real about things...and after awhile, after seeing someone do and make stupid decisions one after another...you get sick of it. You know this person is better than this, so you speak up. Thats what I did, thats why we fell out. However, we made up...if I can let go of the fact that you chose to go the other route....then let go of thinking I'm trying to reprimand you for things you still do today and worse part is, these people are doing things they know in their heart isn't good for themselves because either A. they have mentioned it to me or B. Others have said it to them and their telling me. So who are you really mad at, me or yourself and your situation your in?
I know I am only in control of my feelings, emotions and how I let others make me feel. Don't put the blame on me, as if I made you feel this way...we as individuals have control over what we feel and how we let others affect us. I may say something you don't like.....but I move past it when people choose to do what they want. Their grown adults, I'm not trying to be anyone's mother and I know people are either going to take my advice or words and make use of them or they are not. Either way, I let it go.....so why can't these people let go of the animosity towards me, like I really did something to them.
I think thats what pisses me off the most. Yes, when I was younger...I was more confrontational...I raised my voice a lot. But that ain't me now, time changes people. Its still in me to be that way, no doubt...but I don't walk around like that. And if these people really knew me, they would know how quickly I can get mad and get over it. I ain't about grudges or revenge. I ain't about all that bullshit. I'm about saying what I feel...take it or leave it. I don't expect others to agree with it or feel that way either. If anything, I'm about dealing w/ the issue...making amends and moving on. I am not one to walk on eggshells. I've learned to pick my battles, whats worth saying something about and whats not. And if people noticed, I usually don't say shit about anything these days.
I'm at that point...if people can't handle that, then so be it. I am me...like you want me to accept you for who you are, then accept me for me.
Yes, I am a blunt person. I say what is on my mind and what I feel. I think thats the best way to go about things...keep things open and honest so there's no room for misinterperations or miscommunication. I think on logic and to have someone tell me...."not everyone's logic is your logic", like I'm a dumbass and don't know this. Its obvious that not everyone thinks on my level, if that was the case........there wouldn't be a reason the bullshit exist in this world. And I'm not saying I'm better than anyone else but I know what I stand for and what I want in life. I know what I will or will not tolerate from people. I know I can be a bit harsh on people but thats because I care for them and I'm trying to look out for their best interest because I don't want to see them hurting later on down the road. Is that not what a friend is supposed to be? Maybe my standards for friendships or relationships are just too high for others to get.
I'm not a black and white kind of person, so I don't get why people assume...well she reacted this way when we fell out (just because they never understood why I said those things or what my real intentions were behind it in the first place), she's still this way today. I see gray and if they knew me so well.........they would see and understand why I said those things. I'm not about being negative or bringing others down, hell I feel like I'm more uplifting to people than anything. But I am about being real about things...and after awhile, after seeing someone do and make stupid decisions one after another...you get sick of it. You know this person is better than this, so you speak up. Thats what I did, thats why we fell out. However, we made up...if I can let go of the fact that you chose to go the other route....then let go of thinking I'm trying to reprimand you for things you still do today and worse part is, these people are doing things they know in their heart isn't good for themselves because either A. they have mentioned it to me or B. Others have said it to them and their telling me. So who are you really mad at, me or yourself and your situation your in?
I know I am only in control of my feelings, emotions and how I let others make me feel. Don't put the blame on me, as if I made you feel this way...we as individuals have control over what we feel and how we let others affect us. I may say something you don't like.....but I move past it when people choose to do what they want. Their grown adults, I'm not trying to be anyone's mother and I know people are either going to take my advice or words and make use of them or they are not. Either way, I let it go.....so why can't these people let go of the animosity towards me, like I really did something to them.
I think thats what pisses me off the most. Yes, when I was younger...I was more confrontational...I raised my voice a lot. But that ain't me now, time changes people. Its still in me to be that way, no doubt...but I don't walk around like that. And if these people really knew me, they would know how quickly I can get mad and get over it. I ain't about grudges or revenge. I ain't about all that bullshit. I'm about saying what I feel...take it or leave it. I don't expect others to agree with it or feel that way either. If anything, I'm about dealing w/ the issue...making amends and moving on. I am not one to walk on eggshells. I've learned to pick my battles, whats worth saying something about and whats not. And if people noticed, I usually don't say shit about anything these days.
I'm at that point...if people can't handle that, then so be it. I am me...like you want me to accept you for who you are, then accept me for me.
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